still, reading the last post while sitting here way too awake at this hour (glance at the time stamp) brings me to realize the only change from the previous entry is that my roommate is back (and her little dog too, ah, my pretty, cackle)... actually, there are some other major changes, but only partly... the ear rings, the clutter is even more cluttered, the pain in the neck comes and goes, and the loneliness is louder than every some nights (like tonight)... changes include a new bed... and a hurt foot... the bed, however, is still in it's plastic wrapper... has been long before the foot was injured, but now the foot is keeping me from doing anything so the procrastination has a fine actual physical excuse...
it's bullshit, of course, because i probably wouldn't have done anything if i could, but it's a true physical limitation... the noise remains... clutter and loneliness screaming the loudest, with the actual ear ringing and foot and neck almost as loud... bloat and fatigue smack me around physically as well... all in all, the self-destruction is quite effective...
so?
Showing posts with label sounds. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sounds. Show all posts
Monday, June 11, 2012
Friday, September 9, 2011
see previous entries
yes, tv, yes, tinnitus, yes, clutter, yes, sleeping on the couch, yes, pain in the neck, yes, missing company, yes, missing sharing, yes, talking to myself, yes, loneliness, yes, not much moved since the last entry... though tonight i spent a couple of hours moving stuff around... the stuff is screaming through the silence... or is that loneliness... tough to tell over the tinnitus...
Friday, May 8, 2009
air conditioner season
it's air conditioner season again... the one in this apartment is not as loud as the one in the last apartments and it does not share a wall with my bedroom and the air vents are not totally uncomfortably placed like the last place, so when it is on (which isn't that often since i like the heat so 80 degrees is usually good for me, i mean, the body is 98.6, after all), it's not that instrusive as background noises go... the tv, on the other hand, has returned as the primary background noise...
Thursday, February 26, 2009
tv
the tv is on again... i'm not sure how it happened, or when, even, the thing just plugged itself in and turned itself on... i think it even bought it's own antenna... oh, those tvs can be so tricky...
Monday, October 6, 2008
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)