Clarity

When you stop avoiding the things that are most painful, when you stop avoiding the things that make you feel most helpless, when you address the worst of the pain you inflicted on yourself and others and that which you fear most, you may begin to reach me.

consistency

if i came here every day and wrote something meaningful, something profound, or even just something that i wanted to share, innocuous, personal, general, specific, serious, irreverence, nonsense, or whatever...

would it matter in the end if you missed an entry?

background noise

and if she came into my life today
would i still be indulging my oral fixation
or would she become the lust of my mouth
and would she provide even better sensation
still best of both worlds would be even better
not a fat lover who would help me die
but a fit lover who would lead to moderation
by being one wiser and stronger than i

does she exist?
someone i missed
lost in the mist
you get the gist

what if i told you it has been years since i kissed someone completely
with abandon and passion that took on a life all it's own
what if i told you it has been years since i knew someone intimately
with as certain as any feeling that i was not alone

there is a pounding in my head
and maybe it is something i ate
but life in this world offers many temptations
without moderation you seal your fate
and if you really want to leave early
then abandon all moderation
and give up everything for me
as i will for you

can anyone?
serious fun?
fifty mile run
and just begun

what if i told you it has been years since i shared trust completely
with unconditional love that made everything alright
what if i told you it has been years since i knew someone that deeply
so long now i wonder if anyone ever knew me at all
all through the night

there is a haunting in my head
and maybe it is a song i heard
hey you
i am out there looking around
all i want is someone to care
to care enough to matter
to actually enter my life
to be a friend in the flesh
to believe in love
and know it
and share it

does it happen anymore?
what else is life for?
all i see are frightened people
running for the door

what if i told you i wanted to trust you
and i wished that you would trust me?
what if i told you i wanted to love you
and i wished you would understand me
the words are way too easy